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Feeling Lost

“Not until we are lost do we begin to understand ourselves.”

Henry David Thoreau

 

I feel lost. Not because I’m in a wilderness but because of being stagnant; not growing anymore.

I feel lost. I don’t know where am I heading to. Is this part of what they called “Quarter Life Crisis”?

I feel lost. Lost in a sense of finding “where do I really belong?”. The world is so wild and it’s a bit confusing.

I feel lost. I’m a bit half-hearted to decisions I make. Shall I take another step? Am I really ready?

I feel lost. I feel like I’m a frozen water – so steady and not flowing. Just still and cold.

Who stole my soul? How to get back?

Being on a plateau is difficult. I’m in a phase right now where I feel like I’m not moving forward anymore. I am craving for something. I wanted more – I wanted more out of life. I wanted a passion, a conceptual dream that wouldn’t let me sleep out of pure excitement. I wanted to wake up every day with unspeakable joy and have that zest for life. I wanted to come out with a feeling of more alive than ever before. I know I can do more. I know that I can do better. Am I just living around my comfort zone? Or I just lost my groove at this season? Maybe YES. Maybe NO.

If you are reading this and you feel the same way, continue scrolling. Cause I understand you and I feel you. You don’t have to worry about what you’re experiencing right now. Maybe, we feel empty because everything revolves repeatedly. So routinary that we got so bored and lost of finding our purpose at times. Maybe, we were so consumed with responsibilities at home, at our job, at our church, and on our relationships. That we find it hard to juggle everything to be productive and excellent in every aspect. Then we got tired and frustrated if we failed ourselves. Maybe, we were so hard on ourselves too. Giving so much pressure and stress just to achieve our goals and ambitions in life and wanting things to get done with a specific timeline. Just maybe.

I don’t know when will we be okay. But here I am, encouraging you to continue to fight for your life – for your happiness and peace of mind. Let’s create what we desire rather than complaining about the situation we are in. Change the way we think and do not be afraid to take risks. Challenges that we face can make a better version of ourselves. Let’s try to look for good things over bad things even if its impossible. Appreciate the little things. See other opportunities and perspectives. Soon, we will see the difference. We will see the change that we’re starving for.

Let’s just continue to let our heart lead us to what we really want to be or to be who we really want to be. Even more, allow God to move in our lives. Without the presence and favor and grace of our God, we are nothing. Let us surrender everything to Him – completely streched out towards heaven as we believe that He can restore our souls. Believe in God’s perfect timing as the bible says:

There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens:

a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 NIV

Hey, it’s just a season. We can still pull ourselves together and be fixed again. A life full of satisfaction and excitement on what’s ahead will be ours. I know deep in my heart that in God there is a fullness of joy, always! All we need to do is to go back to our first love – Jesus. May you find again your soul and may the guidance of the Lord be with you always.

It’s not over, it’s not ending.

🌷Rosy🌷

PS. If you need a talk, just send me your message/s in any of my social media platforms. I am willing to listen. 🙂

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